today dunno is wat day but jus a DAM SUAY day for my army regular fren... his name is vinitino... today his grandpa passed away... at 1910hrs... SORRY VIN!!! cant help u much cos i'm no a doctor... i think if i doc i oso cannot do much things to save him... i'll be more sad... cos i cannot save another life...

once again i experience tis life and death issue and it jus happened to some1 close to mi... nowadays ppl always say wait la,lata then do... but do they noe that they may not get the chance to do the things they wanted to do maybe the next min?? how u noe that by the next min u will still be alive happily talking to others?? u may have a heart attack the veri next second... so dun asume that we are still young and have alot time to do watever we wan... once u decide on wat to do then jus go ahead and do it... dun wait... if not regret is the word i will give u... time and life dun wait for us... they will not say that maybe u still have unfinish job then they dun take ur life away... no such things... so dun do things that we may regret in future... esp things that will hurt the feelings of our closest 1... they care for us the most and why musst we still do things to hurt our parents?? hope u ppl out thr can grown up more after reading tis.. and think abt wat u did and how have u treated ur loved 1.. regret wat u did in the past... then dun coommit that mistakes again in the future... wat past is past... so jus concentrate on future and dun do that mistake again...

i believe every1 of us surely had made or committed mistakes b4 in the past and i'm sure that others will SURELY forgive u if u are willing to change for the beta and admit it is ur mistake... after committing a mistake usually ppl will always think of how to push the blame to others... why not jus own up and i believe others will be happier to c the mature u...

i hope that things will change and turn out to be better for every1 out there and hope that u ppl can learn to be more mature and dun hurt ur loved 1 again in the future... no matter wat mistake u did ur parents will surely forgive u... as long as u are willing to change for the beta.. dun wait till the person is dead then u change and learn ur lesson... treat them gd when they are still alive and when they are dead there's nth much u can do... they dun feel anything anymore...

Labels: 89 days more to go...

ppl, long time didn't write and came to update a bit lo... in fact life had been VERI BORING and veri low key for mi... staying in camp more often than e past and oso getting more rest time in camp then at home... cos at home i'll on my comp till next morning then go back camp to work...

anyway...was reading HER blog and notice that she was sicl recently...didn't wan to sms her cos i dun wan create anymore trouble for her...so didn't leave her any tag in her blog oso didn't sm sher anything...jus dun wan to cause more quarrels for her...then suddenly thought of tis blog i can wish her SPEEDY RECOVERY and hope she get well soon...onlli in tis blog is the onli way we can commiuncate ba...

hope that u will get well soon nd stop spreading the virus to ur family members la...c la now mum sick le oso...all ur fault...some more ur ma ma must work and do hse work...help her out if possible k...lighten her work load then she can recover faster oso...go take more fruit and drink more water and stuff la...u nurse u shld noe beta than mi...k...

anyway after so long still can't do wat i wanted to do...forget HER and our past...jus 5 words to write in out...but it may take 5 yrs to filful it...thinking abt the past, actually we nv do anything veri special but i jus cannot finf a reason why its so difficult to forget her...maybe its jus a type of feeling ba...can't say out de feeling...

dragging and dragging for the past 3 yrs...that's wat is the result now and it jus seems veri difficult to forget everythingn now...ever if we dun call each other...we dun talk to each other..we dun c each other...we dun sms each other...the image of the gd times we had in the past still surface in my mind and it seems like the event had jus happened ytd...feeling so close yet its so far away...unreachable...sometimes i ask myself y did we break up?? y i made that sms to break up?? y u didn't say no?? y didn't we sat down and talk abt it?? y did i have to regret it???

alot of question is already unanswerable and we oso cannot realli find a prefect answer to the question anymore...wat we can do is to jus find a roughly idea/answer base on our memories... i cannot even remember much...i jus remember that i sent u the msg to break up at 6.55pm and i remembered u saying that u wanted to call mi to chat at 7pm after the drama show ends!!! 5 mins... it makes a difference...every second counts... a decision u made can cause alot of follow up side effect on another person...

i oso always ask myself...how would things go if i nv say break up??? how will things turn out to be if we have more patient for each other... how will things change if i learn how to handle things properly tt time... but wawt i can do now is jus a simple thing... REGRET... i noe i will nv forget u no matter wat happens in the future and i oso noe i had made a seriously wronged choice to give up...

sometimes the saddness is within the smile that a person put up on their faces,who will c the other side of them??? who can understand wat they are goin througH??who will spend time getting to know them more???

let mi tell u... the onli person who will stay by ur side when things realli happen is ur family...

wat i wan to say is mostly in tis song... maybe when u are free jus listen to it...maybe u wont noe wat i wan to say...but i believe u will..
孙燕姿-我怀念的

Labels: 45 day w/o u...life still goes on for us...its jus a dream...

halo ppl,i'm back after MIA for 2 wks..not realli in a mood to update though..then oso dun feel like doin things after reaching home..think by now ppl who view my blog in the past oso will stop looking at it cos it is realli veri boring..

dun have pic dun have news..nth at all..lazy la..oso no mood la..got time then do lo..anyway i always gt time la jus dun wan do..dunno wat to say but i tink thru ur blog i believe u had a wonderful B'day and i oso happy for u..take care..and enjoy the days ahead b4 u start working..

Labels: EaRnInG MoNeY

yo ppl,i'm back to update..so long then book out a bit sori ar..nv write anything oso..paiseh..anyway i dunno wat to write leh...nth much to update la...everyday oso go camp work slp eat...

the onli special thing i did was to do a OPS VL for the search of "MSK".. sian...so long le still nv find him...then we must take extra duties every nw and then...dam tired...sell all my duties away...lazy to do oso...who cares...

nth much le...bye!!!

i'm thinking if i still wan to continue writing in tis blog... but even if i stop writing i will not forget tis blog... tis blog consist of alot of effort from 2 person and i will always keep tis wif mi... anyway writing and nv write i guess oso not many ppl care... how many of u realli read?? 1?? 2?? 0??

ummm... writing in the past maybe a way of communication for us... but nw i find it no point le... cos it takes 2 palms to clap... not 1... if the other party alrdy give up and keep her palms in her pocket... then no matter how hard u hit, u r onli hittin the empty air... nth will happen... nth will change...

nowadays ppl always say that dun tink too much abt future... jus be glad that u alrdy have the best memories which u 2 shared in the past... but how many of us will realli wan to give up?? alot of things in tis world is beyond our control... we almost cannot control anything... wat can we control??? nth... we are jus fighting for survial on tis earth and earning as much money as possible to lead a gd life in the future... we are jus hoping that we can make more gd frens and spend time wif them living day by day wif happiness... wat else can we hope for???

i wan to hold onto to alot of things and ppl that are beside mi... but wat can i do to hold onto them??? wat can i do to change their mind and thinking??

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后也
记得我颤抖着记得
感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥

谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔
我怀念的我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

nth much le ba... the words are from a song... if u are interest then go find out wat is the song ba... i still trying my best to forget u... but i guess the harder i try to forget the harder it is for mi to forget... but i will not give up trying forgetting u... cos u gave up on mi le...

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