ytd was in camp thinking abt alot of things... alot of thing that we can do in life... alot of decision we can make along the way... but alot of times we always make the wrong decision and regret in future... every1 have got regret along the way but can we do anything to redeem it???

haix... yts nite in camp oso emo a bit... heng... got dota from eng to play... at least not so bored... then 10pm oonwards is hell... think and think and think... omg!! can i jus like everyday play work eat slp???? dun think can??? i oso dun wan to think de but always when nth to do then will start to think of alot of things lle lo...

nth to say le... lata emo again... haix.. take care ppl...

anyway hope ur little bro is alright!!! heard that he's sick rite?? nw got the HFMD must take gd care of him... children veri prone to that de... k... keep hygiene... dun let him suffer...

after looking at the blog she wrote... and thinking through for the past 4hrs... maybe it's realli time for mi to give up on waiting le ba...

thinking back on how many promises we made... how long i have waited... how we got so close to each others even after months without talking... alot alot more... but then... still the same outcome no matter wat happened... u still chose to stay by him... like i said earlier on... i respect ur decision... i will not question anything... the more i won't do anything to break up u 2... cos i noe force is useless... if ur heart is still with him then i got ur body oso no use... i dun wan that either...

2 & 1/2 yrs back i was the 1 that gave up on u 1st... i said broke up 1st back then... i regretted... i tried my best since then to win u back... but failed after 10000000 tries... and i'm oso tired of listening to alot of things... i oso have got nth to say le... i jus wan to say that i tired my best to get u back but i fail no matter how much effort i put in... i'm jus too tired to carry on le... i give up and raise the white cloth from today onward... from today onward my goal is to forget the passt and look more plan more for my future... no more looking back in the past... wat's past is past... we shld treasure moree abt wat we have nw and plan for our future...

i jus got to believe and admit then we are not fated and maybe i jus lost to time... time is the factor... haix... nevertheless, i nv regretted having u once in the past... and i will always remember the times we share and the things we do in the past... from nw on all this things/ memories will be kept in the deepest part of my heart and they will always be carried with mi no matter where i go... no matter how old i am... thx alot for everything u did for mi...

take GREAT care of yourself... dun always let others bully u... k... and dun be lazy... go and find a job and start working... do more planning oso... k... hope to c u becoming a more outgoing person.. dun disappoint ur parents... they may seems to not care so much abt u but that's ot a fact... the fact is no parents will dump their children except my mum... all parents care for their children de... jus that they think that the younger 1s need more attention so u may feel nelgected... k... dun think so much... i believe they care for u as much as they care for ur little bro... k...

take care... hope u will have a gd future wif him... if wan be tgt then there must be give and take... dun always jus think the negative side of him... every1 got gd and weak links... must give and take in a relationship... k... slowly learn thru ur way and i believe u can do it... k...

take care my dearest fren... wish u all the best in everytihng u do... MISS U ALOT!!!

hi, alot day staying in camp so nv got chance to update blog... though sometimes nite time can use internet but i nv update... lazy... in camp nth to do then play or slp lo...

anyway nowadays cannot play CS in camp during office hrs le... cos head of wing complain then bo bian... mdm ban us from CAI during office hrs... so onli can play after office hrs... haix.... so sad... and sian... haix...

today came home... help my buddy do his jumping quest in maple... wa lau... zakum jump quest will make ppl angry de lo... but my patient still paid off in the end and i used 3 hrs to complete it... and in the mean while died 3 times... heng eng got A CASH... can buy safety charm... haha...

ok... but to my life... today then saw then ye got a blog for herself... no bad... at least u did it after u said it for 3 yrs... lols... must continue to update k... dun so easy give up... anyway inside her blog the words to small... i read oso difficult... must use so must concentration... lols... eyes will tied veri easy de leh... go pput the word bigger la... haha... ummm... inside got her life and pics... can go see see lo... anyway glad that she patch up wif XH le... hope he will treat her beta and be more understanding ba... WISH U 2 ALL THE BEST IN FUTURE...

anyway i miss the tues dinner wif my frens... haix... sad...sorry ppl... next time i promise i will try my veri best to go de k... haha...

ummm.... dunno wat to write le... take care ppl... nite!!!

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ummm... today ma.. again slept at 8am... wa... play game wif fren la... dun need say... the starhbub so gd... onli can use from mid nite onwards... so bo bian... slp in evening then play at nite lo... haha... ok...

ummm... next wk onwards course starting again le... tis time rd worse... 4 course goin to run at same time... wa lau... super busy liao lo... dun need say... 1 course still can slack... 2 course still ok... 3 course a bit tiring... 4 course is OMG!!! super busy can... cannot go play CS le... LOLS!!!

ummm... nw comp lag again... if not i'm surely in game... whr got time to talk... haha... so lag then cannot play... so came out to update blog... oso nth much to update wor... ummm... anyway tis comin tues the dinner i cannot make it wif my poly frens... dam sad... cos nowadays they all start working le... difficult to meet up... then got course running cannot go... sian... sori gals... maybe some other time k... sori...

anyway u gals go have fun ba... go eat play shop till drop dead... haha... those who got to work next day beta go home earlier... haha... take care... enjoy...

haix... starhub realli realli realli sux man... wkend cannot use internet... public holiday cannot use... sch holi oso cannot... even peak hrs for wkdays oso cannot use... then when canuse??? after mid nite ar??? sian to the core... stay at home wan play game oso cannot...

their connection realli sux to the core... morning woke up wanted to play then lag... noon time try again still lag... nite time oso lag... wa... like that lag i dun need use my internet le la... i'm surely and confirm goin to change to singtel once starhub plan is over... no matter wat offer starhub is goin to give mi... i'll not extend it anymore... waste my time onli...

haix... nth to say le... everyday seems dam boring... nth to look forward to... go slp nw... mid nite then wake up c if i can use the internet... starhub SUX!!!

today is the ninth day... if u noe wat i'm talking abt then read it... if not forget it... dun ask mi wat is it... ppl ard mi shld noe wat i mean...

anyway tis few days veri sian... play game then it lag... dun play game then nth to do... goin to read up some books on share investment and get more info on that... now i have quite a big interest in share nw... so must read up some book and get more info abt it b4 putting my feet into tis investment... if any1 who noes how to play tis or anything u wan share wif mi abt share can jus give mi a sms or call... i'm totally new to share investments... i noe nth at the moment... haha...

ok... nth much le... today jus wen to BBDC to book my basic theory test... OMG!!! dam suay can... u noe wat's the test date??? FRIDAY THE 13TH... that's y onli that day got slot for the test... LOL!!! no1 dare to take test on that day... but mi and my fren hack care... haha... we still book it and the test date is 13th june 2pm-3pm... hope i can pass it once... haha... dun need waste time on stupid things...

nite!! nth to update le.. oso lazy to update... wan orh orh le... recently dunno y get tired veri fast... like every 5 hrs will be super tired... not body tired... is onli the eyes... maybe got some problems... dunno... take care ppl... have fun and enjoy ur days!!!

today dam sian... at camp early morning onli kanna some scoldings from boss at 9 plus abt the movement chart and parade state again... not like i nv e mail to all users in MTW... i did told every1 that they are to sms or give mi a call to tell mi if they are on MC or OFF DAY or LEAVE... if they dun wan call mi or sms mi then wat can i do?? expect mi to call every1 to ask every morning meh???

not like i'm dam free every morning to call and ask la.. then sometimes call le they oso dun wan answer, sms them oso they dun wan reply mi then wat else can i do??? u go ask they insert a chip into their body la... then can track them with special device wherever they go... then dun need ask and make mi so troublesome... super sian la... early 1 morning fuck mi like hell... then after that when u working on the course opening slides... worse... its my very 1st time doin that slide and no 1 have taught mi on how to change that... think YY taught mi ar?? bull shit la... he nv lo... then when i changing the photos and the headings... he jus came over and hit mi on my head and push my head... CCB!!!

talk then talk la... dun push and hit my head... push for wat??? KNNBCCB!!! my head for u to push de ar??? fucker!!! if i not in camp i surely and with no regrets i will bash u up if u do that to mi outside camp... spoil my day early 1 morning...

dun wan talk le... dam angry... hope tml vince dun put mi areoplane again... beta make it for the BBDC trip... niteZZ!!!

hihi... back at camp to update u ppl on wat happened today... ummm... today wen back to camp to work as its monday... dun need say oso must work la... anyway today go back oso do nth much...

early morning onli mdm alrdy say OA is goin to be down soon... so i quickly send the parade state and did every impt thing... then after that slack whole day... nth much to do oso... walk here and thr to return others the computer then go help others do some work... but still wen to garage to help my buddy as the cage needed to be sorted out...

take care ppl... i'm goin to slp 1st lata in the nite then wake up to play game le... take care... nite!!!

halo ppl... i'm back to update my life... but nth much to say le... today is veri another boring day for mi... haix... nth to do then wat else will i do??? play game lo... everyday oso like tt... haix..

today noon time woke up... then on my comp... and sat in front of it till nw... lol... power la... super no life... everyday play game... then game game game... ok... talk something abt last nite...

at ard 2am... saw a black thing ran across my bro's rm... then after waiting for 5 mins... finally confirm tt its a at least 20CM RAT!!! WTF!!! then i spent the next 4 hrs catching it... the rat's reaction is so dam fast... i haven even make any move it run back to the hole le... and when i'm jus abt to get off my sit, it will turn its head and look at mi... so smart... but so dirty... if hamster then i dun mind... rat leh... dunno got go rubbish bin or wherever it goes then com into my hse... nv die b4...

then i blocked 1 exit and the rat is left to go in and out from a side... i so so so so nearly caught it... it ran past my side and when i try to cover it with a container i onli can kanna the tail... but the moving force of the rat is still too strong and it still manage to run back to its hole and hide... then i oso covered the other exit... but cannot fully cover it cos of the power supply plug...

wenn to slp at 6 plus in the morning... when i woke up... the rat is gone le... CCB!!! so heng... tonight i will try to catch it again if i c it... nite ppl!!! take care!!!

haix... today actually for a few things to do de... but all oso nv go do... next wk ba... cos my fren he sick... ya... bo bian... so next wk then go book my basic theory test lo... anyway next friday got 1 day off from the past corse... haha... gd leh...

today did nth... realli nth... wan to go out nv go out... wan to play game internet super lag... canot even play... then slp till 4pm then wake up... so nth much to say...

3rd day... and its counting on... haix... nth to say between us... from everyday of non stop talking to nth to talk... some more tis happened over 1 nite... wa...

CHANGE IS THE ONLI THING THAT DOESN'T CHANGE ON TIS PLANET!!!

wa... finally after so long... the trainees are gone and the course for them is finally over le... haha... then today is the last day of course for them and it oso mean we can relax for 1 wk b4 next course comes in again... and tis time its ASC... i will be super busy then... haha...

haix... past 2 days actually we didn't even talk or sms-ed... not even 1 sms... haix... thinking why ppl can change so fast and so much within a short period of time... the saying of "no 1 will die if they live on without u" is dam true... its the most wrong thing to believe that any1 will die jus cos u leave them... they will nv... cos we r human... human are most untrustable animal on tis planet... nv will any1 die together wif u de... dun believe those bullshit that other says to u... at tis oment they can say that... then moments lata when things realli happen, then u shld c who realli still stand by ur side???

family members aside... maybe some family members oso won't care abt u... lets not say frens... or watever person that u called BUDDY!!! SISTERS!!! BROTHERS!!! haha... dun make mi laugh... i can be sure that not more than 5 of them will stand by u... so lets face realilty... when u have $$$ surely u have alot frens... when u dun they oso won't find u... MONEY MAKE THE WORLD GOES ROUND... tis sentence is oso surely true... dun ever have a 2nd thought abt it...

anyway if tis continue, i dun think we will ever talk again oso... but maybe tis will helps in letting mi forget u ba... sometimes in camp then i'm so busy to think of anything, i realli like that... busy till i can forget everything... dun have time to think abt other things... sometimes jus want to worked till that tiredness and jus lie down to slp everyday... dun even wan to think abt future... dun even wan to think abt problems... dun wan to think abt troubles... but how can we run away from realilty??? go to outer space??? i hope so... go under water oso can la... jus dun wan to care abt anything sometimes...

today wen to c mum... her wound is starting to heal and its getting smaller as days goes by... great!!! finally her feeling has oso brighten up... hope that the skin will grow by itself and she doesn't need the transplant... then dun need stay at hospital again... if not got to stay for 2wks again lo... ya... then tis time realli can c suyi at NUH le...

anyway nth much le... take care ppl... dun fully trust even the closest person next to u cos u dun know when will their feeling changes and wat are they thinking...

haha... today is another slack day as the outfield exercise for the others continue for teh 2nd day... and i'm like slacking in office... althought early morning mdm sara asked mi to shift the computer ard... other than that i onli got a few others things to do...

shifting of computers continues and still thinking which comp can we use... keep on shifting and shifting... aiyo... make mi blur blur oso... haha... but who cares as long as my work can be done... ya... then came home to have dinner wif my mum right after work... heard that mum was comin home for dinner so i rushed home to c her... haha... so long nv c her le... then talked abt things and alot of stuff... hehe... had a great time wif her always... take care mum... hope u can recover asap and move back home... SPEEDY RECOVERY!!!

anyway then abt last nite... was talking to ye ye last nite...

aiyo... thought we got a chance in the future... in future i mean... but then... haix... i can understand that she doesn't wan to get any BF for the time being but then i'm talking abt future... i did not even set a time limit to it... i jus asked if i will have any chance in the future and the answer to mi was NO!!! haix... sadded... without giving a 2nd thought she replied mi "NO!!!" thx alot gal... all the thing we did tgt and u did for mi were jus for a fren... recently u treated mi so much beta and let mi have a dream but then u brust my dream bubble once again... recently u did so much for mi but still nth came out of it in the end... i asked u the 2nd time again on the same question but still the same answer u gave mi wothout thinking... wat else can i say??? can i beg u for it??? i won't cos relationship can nv be forced...

and u told mi that to be straight-forward in telling others how u feel is beta than beating ard the bushes... true enough i agree with that but i was still a bit sad when i hear the ans from ur own mouth... i knew wat the ans was goin to be... but i jus chose not to believe it... maybe i brought all the problems and troubles upon myself de ba... no 1 to blame for things like tis... jus blame it on fate... we r jus not fated...

haix... i said b4 to u and i'm sure i will still think the same way in the future... i will not and oso dun wan to get to know other gal anymore than a normal fren other than u... i have spend 2 plus yrs to get to noe u beta and i dun have the energy to do that on other gal anymore... but still i won't force u to do thing that u dun wan to... haha...

go and find a job that u like to work as since ur mum alrdy tell u to find a temp job 1st... dun let ur mum keep nagging at u... take care... tml staying in camp again... nth much to say le... bye!

haha... i'm back to update u ppl on my life... haha... gd leh... today in camp work quite relax... haha... cos all of them went out of camp to go outfield for exercise... haha... then left mi and another fren in camp to take care of he whole office...

WAHAHAHAHA... relax jet le lo... haha... but when ppl call back into office... surely got job to do le... cos no 1 else u can arrow to do the job le ma... onli left 2 of us in office... not i do mean my fren must do... then he oso alot work to do so i will do the things if i can lo... haha... tml must shift the computers ard cos they are not at the positions that they shld be at... sian... alot of work... hope can finish early then can relax again... haha...

oso nth much to update la... everyday life in camp is the same de... but today got 1 shock... while my buddy is preforming his duty at the front gate... he nearly died... got 1 2pid driver dunno is no eyes or eyes got stamp... drive his van without looking at the road in front of him... they drove right into my buddy and needed my buddy to use his bare hands to prevent the van from hitting him... wa... HENG!!! the van didn't drive at a high spd... if not there goes my buddy... thx god... anyway tis is to teach u dun anyhow walk across the road without looking at it... dun think that the drivers will always look out for u... sometimes some 2pid driver like HIM will BANG right into u... i dun wan to lose any of my frens ok... will miss u ppl de...

take care ppl... haha... miss u ppl... tml go home then upload some photos... haha... HAVE FUN!!! enjoy ya day...

gd morning ppl... look at the time of the post nw... morning le... dun say i type wrong... hehe... lols... anyway today was quite happy abt aa few things...

tis morning, oops no, shld be last nite i didn't slp... was playing games wif my frens online then play till 7am then wen to orh orh... tired... hehe... then woke up at 12 noon... started playing game again... haha... in game oso quite happy cos i got some nice items... then oso levelled up twice... haha...

anyway nite time ye ye gave mi a big surprise... she indeed manage to change my blogskin and put in the tag board for mi... all her credits gal... not mine... she took time out to try and test the blogskin until its prefect on her own blog then she edit mine... jus because she doesn't wan to spoil my blog postings... hehe... thx gal... give u a BIG HUG... oops... lata ppl say we ai mei again.. haha... who cares... we happy can le...

then she change everything from top to bottom and it turn out to be a nice master piece from her... although got some parts not that prefect but then she still solve the problems 1 by 1... so much patient wor... that prove that she can be veri patient and veri nice de... then jus when she finished editting my blog... her mum scold her for using the comp for too long... aiyo... dun put it in heart la... where got mum dun wan her daughter to be a gd gal de??? mothers will nv push their child to die de... their thinking and sayin are surely for ur gd de... k... dun think so much... jus quickly go find yaself a job then start working... once u start working i believe things will change beta and their oso won't nag at u so much le... k...

ye ye, realli a great help to others at times... when she gd mood, when she dun have mood swing... when she feel like helping u... haha... she's super nice de... ok la... on account of u helping mi edit the blog then i will treat u to a meal in future... eat for all u can... but dun burn my pocket oso hor... lata $$$ fly away i heart pain... haha... k... go rest early oso ba... take care... nitexx!!!!

big hug for ye ye once again for making my blog look nice and colourful... hehe... i nv claim any credits hor... all give u... cos i onli wan CASH i dun wan credits... WAHAHAHAHA!!!!

ah ma... tis post is write for u de wor... things can get veri out of hand if 2 person oso dun wan give in to each other de... so always no matter wat surely 1 side must give in 1st and let the matter rest...

after telling him how u feel then let him noe how u feel is gd enough le... the rest is up to him to let him do his own reflection... he shld noe that who's at fault and who's not... since u alrdy tell him that's how u feel abt the incident... then its now up t him to think if its realli his fault for the neglience and his carelessness... k...

dun need to say abt it anymore de... once is enough le... if he noe how to think and he realli care then he will surely put in more effort in the future de... and maybe the issue jus slipped his mind and he forgot abt it lo... nvm de la... jus a small incident... dun put it in ya heart k...

sometimes when we have alot of things in life that we will forgot and slip our mind... mistakes sometimes can be amend in time but some mistakes cannot... so since the mistake oso happened le then jus let the other party noe how u feel and once is enough le... cos we oso cannot go back in time to correct the mistake so jus let the other party noe how u feel and they shld then do some reflections and not make the same mistake in future anymore... wat's impt is to let them noe how u feel and how u think... dun run away from problems and troubles... running away is not a solution for anything... k...

ah ma dun angry le k... must have a big heart to forgive and forget... dun put a small thing like this in ur heart... plan in future to go overseas tgt again lo... k... take care... :P

my poly family members

aiyo last nite and tis morning kanna nag abt taking of my driving license... haix... no say i dun wan take la... i promise le i surely will get it done b4 i ORD... i got my plans de... no worries...

ytd dad nag at mi abt it... then tis morning is aunt... aiyo... sms the mr dragon then maybe next week go book the test date le lo... waiting for mr dragon's reply... think he slping... ya...

oso dunno wat to say le... when got things to say then add posts again... today is jus another sian day ba... :(

dunno y leh... jus a bit sad maybe cos maybe it will be the last time i meeting the gals for tis yr... and maybe cos others things happened oso ba... nvm... think abt things for our future... must wedding dinner be hold during marriage??? y??? y cannot dun hold wedding dinner??? y must ppl look at $$$ so impt-ly??? haix...

my dream gal and mi... but onli a one-sided thingy...

haha... nw in camp wor... finally can come online to update my blog. then next time stay in oso can update my blog for others to read le lo... hehe... nice leh my camp...

anyway today oso a bit free la.. so got time to use the comp to update my blog, sometimes dam busy then suay lo.. at nite then can update lo... hehe... jus now in the noon wen to store to collect some items that i have intended long long long long long ago... then super heavy lo... then heng got my fren to help mi... at least not so heavy now... ya...

anyway tml goin out wif frens again lo... haha... leave again... dun care abt camp... go back oso sian... hehe... go out play play then eat eat wif u gals again lo... surely de... some more got BBQ... HOHOHOHO... everyday eat eat eat play play play...fun sia... ok...

i go home tonight then update again... now go back work 1st... if not others will scold mi le... take care...

haha... back home... home is still the best... at least got my own bed and lap top to use... can update tis blog... can chat to the gals... can talk and stay up late in the nite...
anyway tis 3 days realised something... she and mi got alot of different in the way of how we wan to lead our life after marriage...

HER DREAM:
1) wedding dinner at grand hotel
2) small house
3) 2 person world
4) find a RICH guy

MY DREAM:
1) jus a simple buffet
2) spend more money on honeymoon holiday
3) big flat to stay with my dad
4) i am not RICH

alot more things but i cannot recall at tis moment... later think of any then update again... anyway onli until tis week then i realised that actually we got so much of difference in the way of how we wan to get married and how we wan to lead our life after marriage... the type of life u wan i surely cannot afford... i am not rich, not handsome, dun even have a gd future until nw... even if i can afford i oso won't wan to spend the money treating ppl to wedding dinners... cos the couple themselves dun even have the time to eat the gd food... they r so busy goin ard to drink to entertain others... wat for spend the money and get urself so busy??? i rather spend the money to go on a great,nice honeymoon and let the trip stay as the best momeries in our lifes...
then another thing is abt staying with my dad... tis is a thing that i will not give up... i will surely stay wif my dad no matter wat happens unless he is no longer ard on tis earth... since i'm 3 yrs old, my dad had not stopped working jus to support mi for my studies and the family. single parent family who understand the pain and hardship that my dad had suffer for the past 20 plus yrs... how can i jus leave him alone after he suffer so much for mi??? how can i abandon him after all the hardship he gone through to bring mi up to tis point of time??? no matter wat my dad is still the most important person in my life... he is the best dad on earth i believe... so caring, so nice to mi, nv scolded mi,shower mi wif love and care... not even once he left mi alone in the dark... help mi out of troubles unlimited times... everything he done for mi, i can nv repay him for my life...so giving him everything i have in future is the onli way i can repay him...

jus nw wen out to eat and celebrate CAR's birthday... haha... quite fun and the food we ate at vivo was oso nice... then was go eat ice cream... birthday gal treated us some more... so pai seh... haha... let birthday gal treat us... LOL... but it was a nice outing oso... talk alot and oso see kai yi finally... she like MIA for 1000000000000000000000 yrs... lol... then today get a chance to chat wif her lo... ya... she oso passed mi the present she got for mi from japan... ya... another present... hehe... then chat wif every1... had a fun and happy time wif them always...
then took a few photos wif car and others... hehe... pretty gal leh... of course must take... then happy times always dun stay long... so still got to say gd bye to them... anyway friday we are goin out again... must enjoy wif u gal when u gals r still free... if not later all become SN then no1 is free alrdy...
when goin home i guess as much some1 called her then she got a bit of mood change lo... haha... but she dun wan say i oso dun wan ask la... she wan say will say herself de... then kai yi and suyi keep asking mi questions abt her,her ex-bf and mi... aiyo...

1) ask mi if i'm happy to see the 2 of them broke up...
ans: ok lo... not much feeling cos i alrdy noe they are goin to break up...

2) ask mi if i will go after her once again...
ans: i will if i have a chance...

then wen home talk to her on phone... told her that suyi asked mi those questions... she oso guessed correctly that i'm ok wif her broke up... but when i asked her that question 2... i asked for her answer... the answer that her heart feels...

haix... sadded once again... i ask her if i will be able to get her back in future... the answer she wan is NO... but the answer i wan is YES... nth much to say le lo... if that's the answer she wan i oso will respect her la... nth much i can do oso... sadded, sian, no hope sia... but still nth much i can do...

nite my readers... dun read till so late le... bad for health...